When I was typing up yesterday's post I never expected to get the reaction I did from you guys. I want to tell you all from the very bottom of my heart how much your kind words mean to me. Your support and your stories really touched me. I received so many emails from so many of you with the nicest comments ever and I could not help but to feel better. How could I not? To know so many people care in your own way is an overwhelming feeling. You all remind me why I stay strong and why I fight every day. Yesterday's feedback reminded me why it is that I do what I do for this blog. All the hard work that sometimes feels like too much is really worth it.
Yesterday was a particularly rough day and I felt like it was finally time for you guys to know me as I really am and not just my nails (and now eyes). I feel like by opening up to my readers about my struggles it actually took so much pressure off my shoulders. As silly as it may sound blogging about nail polish really does make me feel good about myself. I take a lot of pride in my blog. So many of you told me that coming here brings a little bit of joy to your day. Who am I to take that away from you guys? A lot of you shared your very own struggles to let me know I am not alone and I could not appreciate that more. We all know we are not alone but it can really feel that way when you are struggling with depression. You all have my deepest most heartfelt gratitude for being so supportive. To me... A total stranger. You guys may not realize it but your words really do mean so much to me. I urge any and all of my readers who are struggling with depression and anxiety to please talk to someone about it. A friend, a relative, your doctor.... Your entire blog following... Someone! Please don't hold anything in because IT DOES NOT HELP!
With that in mind I've decided to show you guys a swatch of a recent CVS purchase. Green is the color of depression awareness, it only seemed fitting that I post this beautiful polish today.
So again I say.. THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH for your kindness and your advice and your loving words. I don't think I will ever be able to communicate to you all how much this all means to me.
I still can't manage to get the magnet polishes to work for me!
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ReplyDeleteI have the blue magnetic from sally hansen and when I apply the magnet the design only appears on the very top of by nail and not the whole nail. Do you have any tips?
ReplyDeleteI usually not one to post a comment but I just have to say, I truly adore your blog. I come just about every day and as others have mentioned, it is the highlight of my day. Your passion for what you do comes through in every post. We are all going through our own private struggles (I know I am!) and it takes a lot of guts to actually share it with everyone. Thank you,...you are wonderful!!!
ReplyDeletei just bought this in the blue i loved it urs looks amazing any tips ???
ReplyDeleteGlad to hear you are doing better.
ReplyDeleteAnd June 24 is a very fortuitous birthday, since it's mine, too. :D Best wishes to you both.
I want this! Wow green looks amazing as a magnetic polish!
ReplyDeleteI'm glad you're feeling better! :) I have those days, myself, when I resign and do nothing or force myself to do things I know are good for me (like studying and eating). I also blog because my blog is a place where I feel very happy.
ReplyDeleteThe polish is beautiful! The emerald green is particularly stunning!
While I didn't post a comment yesterday, I decided to today. I thought about your post yesterday a lot. I too often want to just stay in bed because my job is not something I love. Reading your post yesterday made me realize I'm not the only one with these issues.
ReplyDeleteWhile there is supposed to be depression awareness, I feel that no one wants to talk about it. I hear more about breast cancer and politics than I do about peoples daily struggles to continue on the next day. So it was nice to hear that you have some days that are rough too.
Thanks for sharing with us. You present so well in your blog we had no idea. You really have a lot to offer--I'm sure in many many ways. Anyway, hang in there and feel better. We love you.
ReplyDeleteI love this! It's extremely beautiful. I really love the shimmer. I'm glad you're feeling better!
ReplyDeleteKnow that it can be difficult to make a nice magnetic design, well done! And respect for you last two posts, respect for you!
ReplyDeleteI never comment here, I'm one of your silent readers. But I felt compelled to tell you... Lady, you rock. Oh and not pushing it on you but if you loathe working out bodyrock.tv has short intense workouts. All I do now because I hate the gym and rather spend my money on polish.
ReplyDeleteWow on that polish! There is so much depth in that shade. Good job!
ReplyDeleteThank you for sharing your struggle with us and I hope and pray that you'll continue to have strength and courage. And the swatch is festive, it's like Christmas in June.
ReplyDeletedamn this is a gorgeous green!
ReplyDeleteD'aaaww you brought tears to my eyes. Glad you're feeling better =) That is one gorgeous green, lady!
ReplyDeleteYaaay! Go, Cristina! :)
ReplyDeleteOn a different note, I can't for the life of me get into magnet and crackle polishes. :)
I also just enjoy your blog in a silent non comment way but just wanted to send a silent hug x
ReplyDeleteOh, I love that polish!
ReplyDeleteI came to check on you and your post made me cry happy, understanding tears, well written. But Yaay! It sounds like you have gotten around the corner in the canyon!!!!
ReplyDeleteI guess that is one way to see it! Now you can see more of the pretty views!
The reptile- a- thon sounds freaking amazing, I hope you don't get bitten!
I really enjoy knowing more about the real you! I think I love you! I mean, you invented the combinations with the Jordana glitters that made me batshit insane to order most of them! Especially the one over Milani Key West OMFG And oh holy h3ll now I NEEEEED this GREEN! I will be havin' this one!
Thank you again for sharing so much of yourself, and your blog but be sure that it is ALL about you and what YOU WANT in everything you do!!! Be a little bit of a DIVA, because you are one, right?
Peace, love, healing and perfect polish to you, today and every day! No matter what!
Hello there. I've been quietly poking in on your blog, I lovelove your posts. I've always had an obsession with nail polish & it inspired me to play around with nail art. So thank you. :3
ReplyDeleteAlso, I love this shade of green! I need to get my paws on it. Thanks for sharing it.
& for reminding me to exercise. I'm so horrible at keeping myself accountable.
I didn't think I was going to get any of the Sally Hansen Magnetic polishes since I own several different colors and brands of magnetic polishes already. I have the Clarie's Magnetix green (which is the same as Icing's) like you and yet your swatches of this are so pretty I think you may have just changed my mind. I like the Claire's polish but this green color is even better! Wonderful post! :)
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ReplyDeleteI have been reading your blog for a few months now and I always found you and inspiration to me. And now that you've opened up I find you even more of one! I suffer from bi-polar..I was diagnosed almost 5 years ago and I have battled with depression for a long time. I had lost jobs and never could hold a relationship...until Dec of 2010, and then I got married, finally, at 35 (which in here in UT as a woman you're practically an old maid, but I digress). Things were getting better and I finally thought there was some light at the end of the rainbow. But then, my husband of only 6 months had a horrendous accident at work and almost died-he was in a coma for about 4 weeks and had severe brain damage. So again, my world crashed. But miraculously he came through it. However, he is permanently and totally disabled now due to his severe brain damage. I lost my job the weekend after his accident happened as they said I would not be reliable to work...HA what a crock. Anyhow, I had to be home 24/7 to take care of him and we were on such a tight budget, we couldnt go anywhere or do anything. Enter the internet...I was looking for inspiration and something to do, and somehow came across the wonderful world of nail art and polish and everything pretty. And after a short time, your blog was one of the first I came across. I didn't know anything about blogging or how to subscribe to them, but I quickly found out and eventually started my own blog. Especially for the same reason you did, to uplift my spirit and feel better and also to give myself a place to be me without having to be worried about being judged. My husbands family has berated nearly everyday this past year telling me how horrible I am and evil and a total loser and failure. So I gave up on my meds cuz i figured, whats the point?!? (I have just started taking them again tho cuz they do in fact help with the anxiety and what not). So, as I was reading my blogroll tonight I saw your post and I wanted you to know that even tho I've never met you and we live so very far away, I see you as an inspiration! When you got your job I thought hey maybe theres a chance for me again to and you gave me hope. And on July 2 I do start a new job with great pay and killer benefits. So even though there are those days when you feel totally alone, know that you are not. And even though we don't post or comment there are those of us who look up to you and feel honored that you shared with us! Its so hard to let that guard down and say how you truly feel. I know that in writing my posts I feel so much better "letting it all out" and taking a deep breath. And even though I only have 20 followers at the moment, I feel so honored to get to know them. And more people than not listen and care and feel for you! Cuz if they do me, they most certainly do for you. Especially myself.
I'm sorry for such a longggg comment, but I wanted you to know how important you are to us out here in blog reader land.
Thanks so much for sharing,
Melissa H
I'm glad to hear you are feeling better. Just remember you have thousands of followers who think you are talent and super creative. (And you had the most gorgeous green eyes ever!)
ReplyDeleteGirl, you are awesome and so are your gorgeous nails <3.
ReplyDeleteHi Cris,
ReplyDeleteI, too, have suffered from depression and anxiety for years, with the anxiety getting worse and worse. My psychiatrist and I have struggled to find just the right formula (much like trying to find the perfect polish, LOL) to help me face things with more strength and determination. So, honey, I know how you feel. It is a struggle most days to get out of bed. Daily, I still want to get under my bedcovers and not come out. But I do, because others depend on me. My hubby, my brother (who lives with us and has his own mental and physical issues), as well as our 6 furbaby cats. In addition, I have terrible migraines and other physical issues to deal with. So, long story short, Cristina, I understand! Whether or not this helps you, I don't know, but please do know that I think you are strong, dignified and write an awesome blog! I look forward to reading it every day. And above all, just keep pushing (but not too hard!). Don't let yourself miss out on the wonderful things life has to offer. Make it a point to take it in, little by little, and tell yourself you can do it, because YOU CAN!! If you ever want to talk, email me at sbs dot 1956 at yahoo dot com. I'll be glad to listen, talk, whatever. And love to Muffin! -^^-
Hi Melissa,
ReplyDeleteI'll be glad to check out your blog, but I wanted to let you know that I read your comment here and have to say this to you: G-d bless you and your husband, and the best of luck in your new job! You go, girl. U can do it!
Oh, and the polish is gorgeous! BTW, I live in central Florida, too. Nice coincidence. ;)
ReplyDeleteHello Cristina,
ReplyDeleteI typically skip the text and look at the pretty pictures, but I am currently moving my blog from LJ to wordpress and am updating my links and read your recent posts. Thank you for sharing your struggles. I also deal with depression from time to time, and it is definitely a struggle. I use nail polish and writing to "cope" too. You are definitely not alone, and there is help out there if you need it. That was very brave of you to share.
Marilyn
apart from the great cause to raise depression awareness - this polish is gorgeous. And I'm happy you feel supported :)
ReplyDeleteThis is beautiful! I passed on the Sally Hansen magnetics, but after seeing your swatches I think I'll have to pick up the green!
ReplyDeleteSo nice to see so many people come together to support someone :)
ReplyDeleteThis green is SO frickin' stunning, I can't get over it!
I was away and missed your posts, but I am another person who is here to say, I support you! I have dealt with anxiety and depression for many years, and I commend you so much for reaching out and getting what you need to get through it. And as a side note, I found that exercise helps me too, so I hope it helps when you add it in. Hugs and support to you!
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